Job

   I haven't posted about it but on New Years Day 2014 I gave birth to the twins. I in fact had an emergency c-section at 33 weeks pregnant and our sweet little Listener did not survive. I carried him every moment of his life. I can't begin to express the pain I feel. Tomorrow is the 3 month anniversary of his death and it hurts just as much now as it did when I woke from the surgery and the nurse told me he had died.
   I'm also elated that we have our darling Meerkat! He is such a beautiful child. So sweet and full of smiles and laughter. He keeps me on my toes. Having a preemie in the midst of all this sadness has been overlooked by us for the most part. He is a rather easy baby to care for with few adverse side effects from his traumatic entry. He is a night owl though. Thankfully Husband’s work schedule is such that I can stay up at night and he takes care of the children during the day.
    Sparrow has struggled with all that we've endured but God is helping all of us to survive it. He'll use it in our lives to make us who He wants us to be. She is an amazing big sister and loves her new role.
   This week is especially hard on my grieving heart. Tomorrow marks the anniversary of the birth of the babies. The following day is the 6 month anniversary of my Mom's death. The day after that would have been her 65 birthday.
   A dear friend momentarily thought I was crazy to be studying the book of Job at a time like this. The truth is it's comforting to know that others have suffered hardships that seem impossible.
  As I heal and wait on spring to arrive I am working on a "pocket handkin". A handkerchief monogrammed with a fantasy floral decoration. As you can guess, with a 4 year old and a tiny baby it's hard to slip embroidery into the mix. I'm trying to steal a moment here and there though. In 3 months I've been able to design the motif and transfer it!
   If you  have any questions about what happened with the babies or details about the monogram, just ask. Don't let the sadness of Job stop you from gleaning the immense treasures of this raw book.