The Sad

   The first day of July marked 6 months from the day my twins were born. The tears finally flowed last night. It still hurts and it always will. I miss him. The strangest things and visions come to your mind. I don't mean that in a supernatural way, just your own imaginings. How quiet the delivery room must have been when neither baby cried. Meerkat’s confusion that his brother was not up against him. It was amazing how much they cuddled in my womb.
   I know Listener is better off in Heaven with God. But, I miss him. His Daddy misses him. His sister misses him. His brother misses him. He is not an angel. Angels, the Biblical creatures, cannot attain salvation as people can. They are different created beings and human babies don't change into another creature becoming angels when they die. That is a very good thing indeed. There isn't much in the Bible about whether babies have grown up bodies in heaven (which is the general belief) or if they grow in their new bodies like an earth-bound child does. Either way, my sweet Listener will never know sin. He will never know heartache, sadness, betrayal. Only joy, peace, the presence of God Himself! That's the ultimate comfort.
   God, the God of the Bible, is loving beyond anything we can comprehend. He is love. He is holy too and we should never forget that truth either. In fact He is so very different from us that it will probably take all of eternity to begin to truly understand.
   Oh, that's another comforting gift from God, the length of eternity versus the length of a lifespan on earth. I know that as a human my lifespan is so very short here on earth. Thus my missing him will be short comparatively. I have a job to do here on earth. Several in fact and I will continue to do the best that I can until that sweet day when God calls me home. What a reunion that will be! Until then I'll go on missing Listener while I teach his sister and his twin God's word. I'll teach them about salvation and I'll pray that they choose to follow Christ while they are young. I'll also tell them stories about when Simon was with us on Earth. 
   Do you share God's truth, His word, with your children?

Our Wedding Anniversary

It is indeed a very happy anniversary for me. So many husbands and wives struggle today - and that's if they stay together at all! Husband and I took our vows before God knowing that we represent Christ's relationship with His church. That's a sobering thought when you are tempted to "disagree". Nothing in marriage allows you to sit back and be selfish. Christ loved the church so much that He gave his life for her. Should we as women then representing the church challenge our husbands at every turn? Manipulate them into letting us have our way? Nag and criticize them? How would it look if the Church did that to Christ? I should say how does it look when the church does this to Christ! It's really ugly when it happens isn't it? We even have words for such churches, apostate. So it is ugly when we choose to step out of the role that God has set us in within the bounds of our marriage to our husbands. I'm not at all blind to the fact that some husbands are difficult to love or that the husband may not be even close to living up to his role in the marriage. No matter what the case, this doesn't dismiss you from your God given roll. Men sin just as women do. You can't expect your hubby to be Christ for you. He can't. But let me say it again, this does not give you the license to become anything less as a wife. No bitter tit-for-tat thinking ladies. Instead, we as wives need to rise up and bless our husbands. Pray for them intently. Try to anticipate their needs. Serve him. Love him.